Less than two years remaining, my age will turn to 30 years old. It means that I am not young again. Some people (in particular Indonesians) when interact with you whose same age with me probably will ask like this “what’s your job?”. The question maybe ordinary one but what it actually means?. Here my explanation.
In age 30, you should have got married then have happy life with your wife and children. You have a permanent job with good salary and also have house and car (even by credit). If your career is related to academics, make sure that you are a permanent lecturer. If you are government officials, you have already became part of civil servant.
How if you are not like that ? You are failed.
I do not believe with that mainstream actually. For me, turning 30 years old means that you have already mature. You know what will you do in life, you know “who am I ?”. It’s first step to proclaim your own history. It’s symbol that you have an achievement.
When last afternoon, I spent time for working (mostly related to managerial jobs), this evening has been for research. I am to tired but I should do my target to write a paper about regional innovation system. Even it is not a duty, but it is a step of my PhD research later. I don’t know when I can study my doctoral, but I have clear plan about my future. I highly excited with topic of technology, politics, international network, and business that can be compiled in topic of “system of innovation”. Even spending more time to do merely research doesn’t work because of I have a lot things to do. Maybe it is reflection of my activism so I always not to satisfied about something. I am now so young compared by many scholars in my campus and I have more energy to do something than them, more importantly I have chance to improve some problems in my campus with the position I have right now.
Next year my campus will be 100 years old, I will give my best to its extraordinary birthday. I don’t know my future will be here or not, so one and only I can do is to contribute right now, no matter how small my contribution is. Helping the almamater means helping this nation, so don’t stop working.
Since last long holiday, I have been drafting for my PhD proposal. This day I met my research-mate to give some suggestions. His feedback was worth for me. I am on the way to revise it in a coffee shop. I am very interested for the topic because it is so close with my master thesis. I know that to make scholarships deal with our proposal is nit easy, but I believe I can pass all this things. First step, I complete my draft till this weekend then revise it litlle by little in the next days later. This year I have been so busy that beside having several research jobs, I have some managerial jobs too. I must manage my time better than before. Another important job, I try to focus looking for a future love as my mother asked for.
I am so confident that I can make all that jobs done. It is all about a value I believe that working to help people make your life meaningful and excited. Watch this video, it will describe https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MKlx1DLa9EA
This time is second chance for me to have coffee time at Sulawah. Last night I went here. Like usual, I am here accompanied by laptop. I have been working since several minutes ago. The fu*king paper I have must be finished, its target is tomorrow but I don’t know it will finish or not. Because I have a lot of jobs now, it’s hard for me to allocate special time to do research. There was many distraction when start writing paper because in the same time I must do another two jobs. I think its hard but I have been doing like this thing since two years ago.
When I had dinner a hour ago, I read an article in some WhatsApp group telling about the power of self confidence by optimizing our power more than our weekness. I have been doing many things but all will be useless if I always blame other people. Keep working, keep positive without feeling that you are one and only is true, others are wrong. The best human is always think positive, talk less do more.
Remember that sometime you will memorize the moments that you spending more time to work. You have less time to take a rest and hard to you getting your future love. Enjoy your every single second of your life !
Finally, don’t miss this Ramadhan kareem to close to your God !
I arrived at office at 9 am then doing interview to 2 students in rotation. Then at 11 am, I led a meeting discussing about web development that was attended by a vice rector. After lunch, I edited several plans of the project then did interview with 3 students. Approximately, I did it for half of hour. It make me so tired. I went home from office at 5.30 pm and prayed maghrib at rector office.
As usual, I didn’t directly go to my homestay. I have been having night coffee at Caffetto by doing my another works. My Nvivo is ready, I will start my paper again. Good night !
Most people I met want to work less burden. Going to work, tapping finger print, working, and going home. No more skill upgraded. Like as machine, working under command. When leader orders something, they will do it less happily. But when the salary comes, their face looks very happy. They plans to buy something even just asking because their salary is mainly for credits.
This is the life of mostly workers. They are paid with some money because their works. No innovation rises because of fear to work with more load. One main thing they like is working lazily with much money earned. “Every thing is about money” is their tagline of life. Don’t say about the meaning of life, the important thing is only money. Happy life is having much money.
Ok, you decide to be not like them. You work is to improve or help an institution to be better starting from your work field. Even finally you are in condition that many people dislike you. This is lyfe, white or black will be have enemy. But you will always be a winner because you are not lie to yourself. You always say and act the truth.
Your are young. So every work you do now is an exercise. It is usual when you get some problems. Just do it, and go ahead !
Today was my research time (also lecture time). I entered the research methodology class with continuing completing my research. After lunch, I had meeting with other lecturers discussing about research too but with different topic. After these two discussions, actually I have a lot of homework. This weekend will be busy for me.