Very common for people to say that it is better for us to have a house, an established career, a car, etc before getting married. It is reasonable because those are parameters of success. So before having all those things we does not succeed yet.
For me, success is when we live in pride every day every time in every condition. We are happy because God gives us healthy so we can work, interact with people, and so on. Thanks to God for every thing we have right now.
In my mind, life is a process to be human. As academician cum practitioner, being human through my expertise is when I can understand the meaning of life by optimizing my expertise for people around. Writing paper is a journey to sharpen our mind to think clearly so that our knowledge is being upgraded then it contributes to enlighten people to the right way.
So it is long journey. My concern right now is technology management and entrepreneurship where to be an expert whose big impact needs years consistency. So one by one burden must be solved. Even it is hard but it will be solved if you live in pride. Be you, be yourself !
Remember this day my friend, 5th January 2019, first week of new year. I created repeatable mistakes.
Remember this day my friend.
Remember this day my friend.
Remember this day my friend.
Please learn about this day. Don’t make you stupid. Be a strong guy !
As I wrote yesterday evening, this morning I will update the progress of my works. Unfortunatelly they haven’t finish yet, one of my work is still nothing to do. Even I do much more to take relax temporarely by taking sleep or watching movie, all doesn’t impact anymore to my spirit to finish the works. All because in the weekend, I still think to my works. I always imagine to solve them. This is terrible. The result of my works not significant. Its much better for me to spend weekend for weekend, to refresh my mind by hanging out without thinking anything about works. Stop thinking seriously, enjoy the life. You can continue your works on the next weekday.
I must make my life normal. Spending time all for works is not normal that make us stress. If we go to the coffee shop in the weekend, make sure that there is no laptop in our bag. Enjoy the coffee and its people. You can also go to your mates to strengthen your friendship. Or like your long time weekend, you spend most of the time for sport. All those are good for you because you are human. Remember all those things are run on the weekend, so they doesn’t waste your time. Weekday is time for you to achieve your career dream, but weekend is for your humanity. There is several times remaining before meeting to your boss, prepare your paper !
Woman is unique creature that not easy for us (actually me) to understand. Some people said that woman is strong with her feelings, so if you get her heart you will get her love. Ya, the theory is easy to say but not easy to practice. Maybe degree of my sensitivity to woman is low, is that because my ego is dominant ? or my logics ? Let you (women who know me) rate me. Some woman ever said to me, but I forgot what’s the points. I am too busy with my works, I have no enough time to make some woman close to me.
Yesterday was the time to me to instrospect. For several times I was failed to make relationship with someone. Maybe I need mooore time to learn. It is the time to move on.
I write this short diary in Yellow Truck Patuha, for the first time I am here.
You can’t choose another world.
Basically as human we must have interacted with many people : while working, hanging out, refreshing, playing social media, and so on. This all can create new perspective for us : positive or negative.
If we have strong commitment to something we believe, possibly environment will be colored because of our existency. Minimally, we will not change to be others. But if we have no it, we will alliniate to be someone. This all is a process to be “me”.
It shows that to be our selves is not easy things.
The question then is how to be “me” ? Keep learning and always commit to improve our selves.
As young generation living in this era is not easy. When we work for a beraucracy, there is limited change to optimize our creativity, to create breakthrough. When we create startup, we will work all the time with limited income we get. When we create new venture, hard to us to be new conglomerate because the old one will always dominate market. When we work just being employee with limited salary, hard for us to be independent.
Those conditions strongly convince that to be “me” with independency is hard even it always have chance. Isn’t life is struggle ? So, just hard work to be you.
Someday you feel depresed, there is no people helping you. You try to solve it yourself but you can’t.
One and only that can help you is your God, but you are doubtful to stay closer and closer to Him. Your logics is more dominant than anything.
You keep trying to stay closer to your Lord even it’s hard. You try be a man with discipline.
The things that you have is only commitment to be a good man in the perspective of God.
In this second you aware that you are a man with weakness, full of sins. Sometimes you know that you do sins intentionally, but you can do nothing. Your logics doesn’t work, your heart doesn’t tell you a sunshine.
Don’t give up, God will forgive you if you commit to not to do your repeatable sins. Focus on the good things, be close to God, and keep optimism for your works.
I have just watched a video from Business Insider that talked about a young woman choosing to unistall several social medias she had. She said her life looked more productive after a month doing this. I then touched my smart phone then unistall my instagram, twitter, and clear history of my browsing in chrome to make its cache going away. I then also close whatsapp web-based to stop distruction during my working right now. I realize that my action is not easy because I have became addictive to play in social media. This is my effort to make me more productive than before. I hope that every single one of my works going to be done. I am now on the way to finish my book so I must read more texts including books, papers, articles, and so son. I also must check every single detail of my written text in the draft and match it with transcript of the interview.
Nevertheless, I can’t stop using youtube.
I don’t have plan to stop using social media but I just try to handle my self by that way. I try to direct my self to be productive. I know that it’s hard, let me try.