Less than two years remaining, my age will turn to 30 years old. It means that I am not young again. Some people (in particular Indonesians) when interact with you whose same age with me probably will ask like this “what’s your job?”. The question maybe ordinary one but what it actually means?. Here my explanation.
In age 30, you should have got married then have happy life with your wife and children. You have a permanent job with good salary and also have house and car (even by credit). If your career is related to academics, make sure that you are a permanent lecturer. If you are government officials, you have already became part of civil servant.
How if you are not like that ? You are failed.
I do not believe with that mainstream actually. For me, turning 30 years old means that you have already mature. You know what will you do in life, you know “who am I ?”. It’s first step to proclaim your own history. It’s symbol that you have an achievement.
When last afternoon, I spent time for working (mostly related to managerial jobs), this evening has been for research. I am to tired but I should do my target to write a paper about regional innovation system. Even it is not a duty, but it is a step of my PhD research later. I don’t know when I can study my doctoral, but I have clear plan about my future. I highly excited with topic of technology, politics, international network, and business that can be compiled in topic of “system of innovation”. Even spending more time to do merely research doesn’t work because of I have a lot things to do. Maybe it is reflection of my activism so I always not to satisfied about something. I am now so young compared by many scholars in my campus and I have more energy to do something than them, more importantly I have chance to improve some problems in my campus with the position I have right now.
Next year my campus will be 100 years old, I will give my best to its extraordinary birthday. I don’t know my future will be here or not, so one and only I can do is to contribute right now, no matter how small my contribution is. Helping the almamater means helping this nation, so don’t stop working.
This day I didn’t know exactly how much time I spent for my research. I felt to always connect with my laptop trying to finish my paper draft. I planned that before long holidays it will be done, so I can enjoy with my family then. Even the target is really written in my mind but I try to make my self happy doing that thing because I feel passionate.
I have future plan of my research, so after now research is done I will continue to another topics that is still related. It’s like puzzle. I plann that someday I will finish that puzzle. Then I can go to another big things. For the last, remember that passion is something that can optimize your energy to spend more time in there. So, find your passion.
This evening I played badminton in a badminton dome at Antapani. This was second time in this Ramadhan. This chance was different because I still have sick, have an influenza since friday. I tried to take a rest more through sleeping and also took little jogging last evening but I am still not fit enough. Maybe the virus is stronger than I ever imagined.
Taking sport on the way before iftar makes my body fells so light. I have just had a dinner with meat hoping that it can stimulate my body to be fit so that my influenza will go away. After this, I will take a bath then do praying.
I hope tomorrow I will be actually fit so I can finish all of my jobs.
This time is second chance for me to have coffee time at Sulawah. Last night I went here. Like usual, I am here accompanied by laptop. I have been working since several minutes ago. The fu*king paper I have must be finished, its target is tomorrow but I don’t know it will finish or not. Because I have a lot of jobs now, it’s hard for me to allocate special time to do research. There was many distraction when start writing paper because in the same time I must do another two jobs. I think its hard but I have been doing like this thing since two years ago.
When I had dinner a hour ago, I read an article in some WhatsApp group telling about the power of self confidence by optimizing our power more than our weekness. I have been doing many things but all will be useless if I always blame other people. Keep working, keep positive without feeling that you are one and only is true, others are wrong. The best human is always think positive, talk less do more.
Remember that sometime you will memorize the moments that you spending more time to work. You have less time to take a rest and hard to you getting your future love. Enjoy your every single second of your life !
Finally, don’t miss this Ramadhan kareem to close to your God !
When you have a dream, problems will welcome you making you to rethink again and revise it. One thing you must do is to stay focus.
Believe in yourself that you can do it.
And your dream will come true.
Most people I met want to work less burden. Going to work, tapping finger print, working, and going home. No more skill upgraded. Like as machine, working under command. When leader orders something, they will do it less happily. But when the salary comes, their face looks very happy. They plans to buy something even just asking because their salary is mainly for credits.
This is the life of mostly workers. They are paid with some money because their works. No innovation rises because of fear to work with more load. One main thing they like is working lazily with much money earned. “Every thing is about money” is their tagline of life. Don’t say about the meaning of life, the important thing is only money. Happy life is having much money.
Ok, you decide to be not like them. You work is to improve or help an institution to be better starting from your work field. Even finally you are in condition that many people dislike you. This is lyfe, white or black will be have enemy. But you will always be a winner because you are not lie to yourself. You always say and act the truth.
Your are young. So every work you do now is an exercise. It is usual when you get some problems. Just do it, and go ahead !