Someday you feel depresed, there is no people helping you. You try to solve it yourself but you can’t.
One and only that can help you is your God, but you are doubtful to stay closer and closer to Him. Your logics is more dominant than anything.
You keep trying to stay closer to your Lord even it’s hard. You try be a man with discipline.
The things that you have is only commitment to be a good man in the perspective of God.
In this second you aware that you are a man with weakness, full of sins. Sometimes you know that you do sins intentionally, but you can do nothing. Your logics doesn’t work, your heart doesn’t tell you a sunshine.
Don’t give up, God will forgive you if you commit to not to do your repeatable sins. Focus on the good things, be close to God, and keep optimism for your works.